makoto_kun

I wonder what someones mortal soul would go for on ebay. Anyway, I have decided to be single for the rest of my life. That way I don't have to worry about anyones feelings, or saying something which you don't think it wrong, but really is. So ya, single for ever! Just lots of sex and no commitment. WOOT!

MELISSA we should go to the movie on Friday. FRIDAY. So leave a message!

Seriously I'm not, but it sure seems like I am. So work called today and is all like "Can you work an extra day this week?" I'm like... errrr.... No. "Come on its extra hours, bigger pay cheque..." I'm all like FINE I WILL LEAVE ME ALONE LALALALALALALALALALALALA *hang up* Why do I do all these things for people I never get anything in return. Makes me kinda angry. Maybe I'll go ask for Friday the 26th off so I can go see X-Men 3 with people. Melissa call me *does hand motion with a wink*

No I really didn't, but I thought that this would be the most random heading I could come up with at... 4pm in the after noon. I just woke up... AHAHAHA. OH NOES. Let me tell you about working in fast food. I can sum it up in three words... IT FUCKING SUCKS... Thats it, its a good first job, but then its a good FIRST job, which means get another one afterwards.

So I finally found a store that I could buy the band Within Temptation's cds at. So I was excited to own the actually copy instead of having the downloaded music. I love gothic metal. Its so good. Mixture of metal with orchestration. Amazing, almost opera like singing. Fills me with chills just talking about it. OW MY HEAD.

Oh ya and that little dream I had about being dumped. It sorta actually happened like that. Whats the chance? All you can down now is let out a LAWL. Shrug it off. Oh ya, it happened 4 months ago, I'm over it completely.

...into an anime related show, god kills cat girls. Think of the cat girls you sick bastards. I hate doing physics labs. Then again I shouldn't have left it until the last possible day, but I'm almost done! Kinda excited, and this looks really good (probably going to get a shitty mark on it.) Fuck University. I hate it so much, I wish I could just take a year off.

Sometimes having a significant other, IE my girlfriend can be very stressful sometimes. I agree on something with her and then she says stuff "Ya but I told you this yesterday night" and she totally didn't but she will argue until I just give up because its no use trying to win against her.

Like tonight "Call me around 5 o'clock!" But she heard "Call me when you get hungry."

Why, oh why would I wait for her to be hungry, if I get hungry first I'm eating, so then there would be no point on going out for dinner right? So I did that, went out for dinner without her and did absolutely nothing. Then she calls me at 8:30 asking if I'm readying to go out. FUCK that! I agreed upon 5, not 8:30, did she just expect me to sit there and just wait until she phones. Not 8:30 is too late when I've been up since 5am and I work again tomorrow at 6am. Doesn't cut it!

A day like any other day, the sun was shining, people were walking down the streets, happiness was in the air. I drove down the highway heading towards the local high school to give a suprise visit to my girlfriend. As usual, the city traffic was bad, but luckily my class finished early so I will still have time before their lunch is over.

The drive took no less than ten minutes. I pulled into the parking lot and drifted into a visitor parking stall. Locking it, I walked towards the school, a bouquet of flowers in hand. It was after all our second year anniversary and I love to suprise her.

I pulled open the door and walked up the stairs, familiar faces looking excited to see me, waving and saying hello. I rounded the corner passing by a group of people I knew, but they didn't seem to notice me. I moveds towards where she usually hangs out. There I stopped in my tracks, a sight I thought to never see, and there she was kissing another, with such love and warmth thought I never thought I could once receive. I was unnoticed, but stood dead still not knowing what to do. Suddenly someone from behind yelled a giant hello, screaming out my name. She turned quickly and made eye contact with me. I shifted my eyes slightly, taking a look at the ground, the feeling of tears welling in my window like eyes.

Quickly I look up and the only thing I could think of was smiling. "If its what the heart wanted," I managed to say, still holding onto the flowers, holding back my emotions of great sadness. Her face was pale with fear or grief, I wasn't too sure I was having a hard time seeing. She tried to speak but I held out my hand, no words could help. I quickly turned, dropping the bouquet onto the floor and walked quickly away down the stairs.

She called my name from the hall, her running footsteps coming towards me. I turned and quickly walked down the last flight of stairs, as I hit the bottom she took hold of my arm. "Wait," she said to me." Wait for what, why am I the one having to wait, why couldn't she just wait for me.

Without turning I spoke, "Wait for what, its pretty obvious there is no more waiting."
"You don't understand-" she said quickly, but I interrupted.
"-There is nothing to understand, nothing to explain. It's fine I just wasn't always there, its my fault. Be happy."
I could hear her silent tears. "But I, but I..."
"Please, just fade away," I said now crying. "I'm amazed with the silence you can't hear the breaking of my heart."

I threw my arm out of her grip, hesitatingly I turned around and looked at her. Even with all this emotions I couldn't help but feel like her tears were my fault. Her makeup streaking down her pale, soft face. I wanted to hug her, but disgust was too strong of emotion to fight over. Even if the kiss was nothing, nothing will be the same. She tried to reach for my face, as if wanting to wipe my tears away, but I brushed her hand to the side.

I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out. I just wanted to yell, I wanted to cry, I wanted to say something. But all I could muster was, "So much for my happy ending..." With that I turned and walked out of the building, new tears running down my wet cheeks.

Your Expression Number is 7

Very intelligent, you are usually thinking, introspecting, or analyzing. You have a good mind, and you are especially good at finding out the truth. Very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You tend to obsess over wisdom and hidden truths. You are likely to become a authority on any subject you undertake. Operating on a different wavelength, most people don't know you that well. Very logical and rational, at times you tend to lack emotion. So much so, that you often have times coping with emotional situations. You are not very adaptable - you may tend to be overly critical at times.

Stole from Mel's.

Well, its 5:20am, I have to head to work soon. But what strikes me as odd is the fact that I have 0 people online on my msn. Now some people might get this normally, I have a 122 people on my msn. SOMEONE is usually on at all times. So I'm pretty sure it had something to do with the rumble last night. The pie factory exploded and the shrapnal must have taken out a good chunk of the population.

9", Willow, Dragon You scored 21 wisdom, 33 bravery, 52 emotional, and 5 martyrdom!

A willow wand signifies that you care deeply about emotions, art, and intuition, and that you have a particular knack for charms. Your dragon's heartstring core makes your wand very effective in hexes.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 4% on wisdom You scored higher than 40% on bravery You scored higher than 99% on emotional You scored higher than 0% on martyrdom

Link: The Harry Potter Wand Test written by sputnik845 on Ok Cupid

So this is a very weird thing to be blogging on this. I have really nothing to say except for RUN THE SPOONS ARE COMING. Save yourself while you can, I will hold them off with fork, make sure princess knife gets away to a safe country.

*yatta!*

Summer hasn't been bad, working lots of hours (all in the morning, so I have the whole day left to do something). I hang out almost everyday, except for the ones where I can make plans with 20 different people and then cancel with all of them so everyone is mad doesn't get disappointed.

*fights off ninja's with his own ninjutsu and swords*

I have found a new obsession.... Nope I lied, its still Gundam SEED (Destiny). Everyone has angsty shit, its not even funny. BUT! Luckily this season is not as depressing as the first one. Seriously season one made me want to kill myself I was so sad (no not really, but you get the picture ne?) Oh and I lied again, I do have another obsession, but that is about it Naruto is my other obsession and soon it will be in North America, and you know what that means.... NARUTO PARAPHINALIA (yes I can't spell, its that awesome!?)

*kidnapped by government for secret research project code name: Eternity)

Man I had this crazy dream which could be so cool to be like a movie or something. It starts off back before ancient times. People are at the highest peak of technology, they are more advanced than we are. Rumors are that people are starting to control the 4 elements, fire, wind, water, earth. Since the civilization never thought a threat of these forces they weren't ready for when they came. The cities were destroyed, but the human race was saved by the alliance of the water and earth conjurors. Fire and wind on the other hand were sealed away.

Now in the present time, the threat has returned. The bloodline was clouded and no one knows for sure who will receive the abilities to control these elements. Two were chosen from the blood pools who would control the water and earth. Their guardians were trained as little children to protect them. The one who controls the water's protector is his younger brother, Makoto, born in a half japanese, half american family. The other, earth's guardian is his younger sister, Tiffany, persian british family.

Man it sounds so good. I'm going to write a book.

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Hmm, interesting. Anyway, from TJ's journal.

I have my jesus costume, prepare for the giggles.

Well you see back in the day when I was born we simply just beat our children, but as time went on stupid humantarian fuckers came around and decided, "Hey lets fuck up something that works and makes our children turn out okay and create a race of FUCKING MORONS." And that is exactly what happened. Anyone born after 1990 are retarded fuck shits whom get away with too much for their own good. You see, 1987 - 1989 were good years, children were disiplined properly. We got spanked, our mouths washed out with soap and I must say, we turned out alright.

But those born after 1989 turned out differently. They began to pass laws saying "It was abuse to your child to hit them." BULLSHIT! If they get smacked, they sure as hell deserved it. Where do I get these crazy ideas from? I don't know, it might have happened that one day while I was looking at video games at Rogers Video (copyright) and I accidently bumped into a 10 year oldish kid. He turned to me and said "You better watch where your fucking going asshole." I was appalled by this behavior and I turned to the kids parents and told them "That type of language out of their child was completely unacceptable." They inreturn told me that if I knew how to raise children better that I should inlighten them. So I did just that. "You should spank your children, you should wash out their mouth. That is how you raise them, that is how they turn out right. If you don't believe me, look at almost every child born in the year 1987, they are the nicest, kindest fucking people you will ever meet."

And so far today, I'm not wrong. Some people are dumbasses, but thats because they weren't beaten or punished for doing things. They got everything they wanted, which is wrong. Moral of the story, do to your children what you would do to your scrambled eggs, beat them.

Yes, it has come to this time where I actually own a copy of DDR for the XBOX, equipped with 2 dance pads. WOOT. Not only that, but with my Halo 2 XBOX Live account, I can play online and get my ass kicked (or raped, whatever you prefer to call it) and then go cry in a corner for many hours.

I was sitting in bed yesterday and was like "I want to create my own resident evil character". So I lay there, thinking. Should it be a poor helpless person who gets caught in umbrella's mess.... NO! It should be something to do with RE4. The umbrella corporation is dead now, so all of their bioweapons were destroyed. Then that got me thinking, then I was like, "If it was at a known lab, then the character would be destroyed." BUT Then I got thinking, Code: Veronica, Antartica lab, Alexia. Hmmmm... So I came up with this.

"My name, is Alexis, I am Alexia's viral sister, both created from the same basic viral formula of the T-virus. But 25 years before I was just known as Alexia's half-sister Faye. Alexia's mother died giving birth to both her and her brother. Ten years later he remarried and I was born to the family.

By this time Alexia was more intelligent than many of the Umbrella scientists. She created and perfected her version of the virus which she referred to it as T-Veronica named after our great grandmother. But soon she found a new formula and a new way to "enhance" the effects of the T-Veronica, so she began to work on a new version, something stronger. She used the basic T-Veronica as the template and soon after created the G-Alexis.

Now Alexia was not known for her tests on herself, she took unsuspecting people and used them for her own gain. I was her first target. Since father had died many years back, I was given the most attention for I was only 6 months of age. Alexia and Alfred took me from my sleep on night and put me into one of the human sized tubes. They drugged me and fed tubes through my body for nutrients and many other essential components. I was to be made a freak for Alexia's gain.

But soon after Umbrella was starting to gain wind of what was happening. To stop this Alfred and her took their research far away, where no one would look. Antartica. They moved my tube with them, but Alexia began to grow scared of what might come if they took it away from her. So she quickly prepped the T-Veronica and she emersed herself in it.

25 years later, Alexia of the age of 35 and I of 25 had finally reached maturity. But Alexia knew of my growth and the mistake she had made. The G-Alexis was perfect and more potent than her weak T-Veronica. So before I had learned very well my powers, Alexia had trapped me with hers, keeping me from shutting off my equipment.

Soon she emerged from her tube to start her new world, a new beginning and I was to be left to rot. Suddenly, I felt someone, something warm, something to take away my fears. His name was Chris Redfield. He stumbled upon my chamber only 2 hours after the new awakening of Alexia. He was going to kill me, stop me, thinking I was Alexia. Chris raised his gun, aiming. I was unable to do anything, but something wonderful had happened.

Alexia was upstairs, addressing a man by the name of Wesker. He wanted the T-Veronica from her and was willing to use force. Alexia immediately thought of killing him, but what she hadn't expected was him to be a machine. For that split second of fighting she had lost her connection with me.

I awoke instantly in front of Chris. I looked at him with frightened eyes, tears came up. Since I was taken as a baby I never learned to talk or walk or even see much for that matter, but for some reason he knew that I was not whom I was.

He released me, helping me from my coffin into a new life. Chris began to talk to me, ask me questions and for some reason I knew what he was saying, I was learning what everything meant ten thousand times faster than normal humans. I replied with a simple answer, 'My name is Alexis.' That was all I knew, I never once learned my real name until almost 6 years after the fact.

But this is just the beginning of whom I now am. The world might not be ready for me, but it better become quickly."

Yes I thought that all up! For now...